May 17, 2009

tryin my nerve out, everybody?

funny how everybody seems to pull and gather themselves to stretch my nerve out. at the same time. together!!!! edaaaaan!
mulai dari lastminute-breakup plans, denial, abandonment, backstabs, disagrees. gosh.
i miss them. i miss somebody! i need somebody to be overthought of, over-talked, over-cried. dammit.
i miss him. i miss him. he doesn't want that. and so it kills me.
of how i thought i was ok, i'm not.

dammit, boy! why can't u be normally weird, with a normal needs.
i can't keep waitin'. c'mon! c'mon! c'mon!