tryin my nerve out, everybody?

funny how everybody seems to pull and gather themselves to stretch my nerve out. at the same time. together!!!! edaaaaan!
mulai dari lastminute-breakup plans, denial, abandonment, backstabs, disagrees. gosh.
i miss them. i miss somebody! i need somebody to be overthought of, over-talked, over-cried. dammit.
i miss him. i miss him. he doesn't want that. and so it kills me.
of how i thought i was ok, i'm not.

dammit, boy! why can't u be normally weird, with a normal needs.
i can't keep waitin'. c'mon! c'mon! c'mon!